Day 04 – What you ate today

Todays topic really sucks for me, as I don’t eat that much. Today I had about 2 cups of cheddar explosion and pretzel goldfish crackers for lunch. For dinner, Bill and I actually went out and had Cici’s. I had 2 pieces of white pizza, and a piece of macaroni and cheese pizza, and a breadstick.

My eating is one thing I am trying to work on slowly. I normally don’t eat enough in general. So I’m working on trying to eat breakfast, a snack, lunch, a snack, and then dinner. Not going so well so far though sadly.

Day 03 – Your parents

I waited a day to do this post as today marks 15 years since my Mom died. In recent years I have been generally okay on the anniversary, but this year it has really hit me hard. Despite the marker of my being alive longer without her, then with her being last year, this year that fact really hit me. I think alot of things factor into it this year. Trying to get pregnant is of course a big one. I don’t have a go-to woman to ask about things. I don’t know what pregnancy was like for my Mom. That plus the falling out we’ve had with my not so great to begin with mother in law, leaves me with a big void, that while it has always effected me, has gotten worse in the past couple of years. There’s so many things I want to share with them.

Anyway, onto my parents. My Dad was born May 26, 1956 in Texas City, Texas. His name was William Blake Jones, but everyone knew him as Blake. He even had friends that didn’t know his real name was William until he died. He was around 6’5″ and he weighted around 250 lbs for most of my life. He had dark brown eyes and hair so dark brown it was black looking, which he kept short, and was super curly (he had a fro in the 70’s).He was your typical 70’s rocker/stoner/jock and he is without a doubt one of the smartest men I have ever met. He could have done anything he wanted, but ended up being a stay at home Dad (which is rare in the 80’s).

My Mom was born August 17, 1956 in Barberton, Ohio. My mom stayed in Akron for a while before moving to Buchannon, West Virginia for high school. When she graduated she moved back to Akron and lived with her her sister Paula (My Aunt Paulie that died a few months before my Dad). She had dirty blonde hair, and bright blue eyes (which my brother has the little jerk). She was only 5’2″ and a half (cannot forget the half) and she was typically around 220 lbs throughout my childhood.

My parents met through mutual friends. My Aunt Paula and my Mom had a friend named Pam Witschey. Pam was dating my Dads best friend Gordie. I guess everyone thought my parents would work well together and they got set up on a date. From that date on they were inseparable I’ve been told. They got married on February 21, 1976 when they were 19 years old after dating for 6 months.

My parents went to alot of concerts together. I think somewhere in the 200-300 range. They saw every great classic rock band, The Eagles, Led Zeppelin, KISS, Sabbath, you name it. Music was probably there biggest passion, outside of each other.

My parents were married for just 6 months shy of 20 years when my Mom died. My mom died a little more then one month after her 39th birthday of a massive heart attack. The day my Mom died, a part of my Dad went with her. After my Mom died is when my Dad stopped taking care of himself. He was truly lost without her. He’d even told me once before that the only reason he hadn’t killed himself after my Mom died was because he loved my brother and I too much.

My Dad died on July 6th, 2008. He had a stroke in November of ’07 and just never really recovered. Alot of it was due to him neglecting himself over the years. I think he felt like my brother and I had reached a point where we were okay, and he could just let go of all the pain.

My parents relationship was my example of what love could be. Although Bill and I have both said neither of us would go to the extreme my Dad did (we would both date after the other was gone, etc). They taught me how awesome a relationship could be, and gave me a goal for what love could be like. I was really lucky in that my parents really truly loved each other, and showed it. They’d always snuggle on the couch together and watch tv, my Dad would hug my Mom and kiss her while she made dinner, etc…

I was a really lucky kid to have had the parents I had growing up, and even though I don’t have them any longer, I try to live by there example to show people what a good person my parents raised, since they aren’t around to show everyone what good people they were.

Day 02 – Your first love

My first love happened when I was 5 and lasted till around 3rd grade. His name was Jason. He lived about 4 houses down from me, and as little boys do, used to torment me. I used to run home and cry about how mean he was to my parents. One day, my Mom told me to stand up to him and maybe he would be my friend.

So I went outside, ran down the sidewalk, and when I walked into “his yard”, instead of running from him when he started to push me I told him “No” and pushed him back. After that we became fast friends. We did everything together, playing outside, inside, biking, skating, you name it. When we were 6 or so, he even asked me to be his girlfriend and hold his hand.

We had alot of fun together. He even tried to give me a birthday kiss on the cheek for my 8th birthday, but my Mom was in the car and caught him mid lean, and put a stop to that.

He moved away the next year. I dunno what ever happened to him, but he made my childhood alot of fun.

Day 01 – Introduction

This post seems silly, as most people can find out about me by reading my about page, but it is the first day of the 30 day blog meme and I cant flake on that. So without further ado…

My name is Angela Marie, maiden name Jones, married name Bergmann. I’m currently 28 and I celebrate my birthday on March 11. I’ve been happily married to my husband Bill for just over a year now. We currently reside in a small village right outside of Kent, Ohio named Brady Lake. I live with a zoo. It seems we are incapable of not taking in stray animals or animals friends or friends of friends need to be rid of. We currently have 3 dogs (Samantha, Maxine, and Brady), 8 cats (Frisco, Kali, Bella, Zedd, Delilah, Kahlan, Mara, and Chase), and one rabbit (Chloe). Needless to say my house is always good for a laugh due to the antics. Luckily though all of them get along fabulously.

I have a brother named Joseph who is 26 and lives in a group home in Fairlawn and works for the Summit County DD Board. I also have a brother in law named Dustin who is 16 years old. He used to live with us, but is currently living with a friend.

My current work title is Mac Operator. I work for a physical advertising company typesetting and prepping art for screenprinting and printing on a Mac computer. I set, typeset, and fix art for printing on key fobs, quikoins, cell phone holders, and magnets. We also do poly keytags and acrylic key tags, but I’m not onto those yet. I also do some order processing as well. I work Monday through Friday 8:30 to 5 and love having a regular set schedule.

My dream job is being a stay at home mom, maybe working part-time doing web design and social media from home. Yes, I dream of being a stay at home mom and taking care of my family. Don’t let that make you think I am not an independent woman. I am independent. I can sustain myself and my life, but I don’t need to do so to feel empowered as a woman and individual. I know what I am and am not capable of, and that’s what matters to me.

I currently want nothing more then to have a family, which my husband and I are working on, but have had no success as of yet after over a year and a half of trying. My insurance restarts in November, and my first appointment will be with my doctor to discuss what’s going on. With any luck I will be pregnant within the next year. We even have names picked out. If not, or if I cant, we plan to adopt.

I’d love nothing more then to move somewhere in the south, live on a ranch or farm in the middle of nowhere and just relax. My husband hopes to publish someday and if he does, and it makes us money we hope to move to Texas, buy a large property, and I want to run an animal rescue of some kind. To me, that would be ideal.

After many years of loathing myself, I have embraced who I am. I remind myself every single day that it’s awesome I woke up that morning, that I look beautiful, and that I should live every day like it would be my last. I stress about things like money, or how overweight I am, but I refuse to let my desire to change things bring me down everyday. I think everyone should always live everyday like it could be their last.I think it forces you to put your best face forward everyday.

For hobbies I like to read, take photos, design websites, play video games, and cook. I really like the Horror and Fantasty genre. Most things involving faries, vampires, werewolves, and magic can get me interested if they are well written (Twilight I am looking at you). I have an obsession with Hello Kitty, neon pink, cherries, and “cute” things.

All in all I’m a pretty outgoing, loud, try anything once type person. I seem to be able to get along well with most people, and I try to be helpful. I laugh at everything, and my husband and I have both been told by numerous friends that we are the most laid back people they know.

That’s me, in a nutshell. Anyone want to know something else?

The 30 Day Meme

I’ve seen this meme going around some and felt like maybe this would give me the blogging push I need. So starting tomorrow, expect 30 days of posts from me!

Day 01 – Introduction
Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail
Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail
Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail
Day 05 – Your definition of love, in great detail
Day 06 – Your day, in great detail
Day 07 – Your best friend, in great detail
Day 08 – A moment, in great detail
Day 09 – Your beliefs, in great detail
Day 10 – What you wore today, in great detail
Day 11 – Your siblings, in great detail
Day 12 – What’s in your bag, in great detail
Day 13 – This week, in great detail
Day 14 – What you wore today, in great detail
Day 15 – Your dreams, in great detail
Day 16 – Your first kiss, in great detail
Day 17 – Your favourite memory, in great detail
Day 18 – Your favourite birthday, in great detail
Day 19 – Something you regret, in great detail
Day 20 – This month, in great detail
Day 21 – Another moment, in great detail
Day 22 – Something that upsets you, in great detail
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better, in great detail
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry, in great detail
Day 25 – A first, in great detail
Day 26 – Your fears, in great detail
Day 27 – Your favourite place, in great detail
Day 28 – Something that you miss, in great detail
Day 29 – Your aspirations, in great detail
Day 30 – One last moment, in great detail