My Infertility Myths


There are a lot of myths out there surrounding infertility. Here are a few of them and how they relate to me:

Just relax, then you’ll get pregnant.

No. Just, no. If this was the case, I think there would be alot less pregnancy going on in 3rd world countries. Women have been getting pregnant under duress since the dawn of time, it isn’t stress keeping me from getting pregnant, it’s the disease I suffer from called infertility. No one tells a cancer patient to just relax and their cancer will be cured. If they did, you’d tell them they’re an idiot.

Adopt, you always get pregnant then!

While this does occasionally happen, it is not what happens for the vast majority of infertile couples that adopt. Only having a .01% chance to conceive naturally does not mean it’s impossible, just very close to impossible.

My brothers, sisters, cousins, BFF went on vacation after trying for __ years and SURPRISE, pregnant!

A vacation does not get you pregnant either, please see the above “relax” comment. Anyone ever also stop and think that maybe the “vacation” they took was actually a treatment cycle? Especially given the vast majority of couples do not share their infertility with anyone? Either way, a vacation is not going to magically make my fallopian tube finally work.

What about surrogacy?

Outside of the exorbitant cost, there is nothing wrong with my body to prevent me from successfully carrying a pregnancy. In fact, my specific issue is why they created IVF in the first place. Women with tube related infertility have some of the highest rates of success, as that is typically the only issue the woman suffers from.

Just adopt, you’re being selfish.

Adoption is selfish as well. Everything we do in life is selfish. My desire to experience pregnancy and give birth to my own child is a natural biological desire.

If you can’t afford treatment, you can’t afford children.

Yes, because every single couple that has children pays $9000+ up front just for the chance at having those children. This belief is so totally wrong it is ridiculous. We have the space, the finances, and the love to give to a child, we simply cannot afford an expensive, paid up front medical procedure. Most people cannot. Most people however have the luxury of being able to pay off the bill over time for medical treatments.

Maybe you weren’t meant to be a mother, maybe you were meant to ___________ instead.

I’m not even going to go there. But yes, this has been said to me, on multiple different occasions.

Financial Infertility Update

14712949105_04b02f7282_oLast week I finally sent off the paperwork, tax forms, W2’s, etc to the two different companies that offer discounts for IVF meds, DesignRX First Steps & EMD Serono Compassionate Care. It only took 2 days for the first approval, and a couple days after that for the second. I have officially received:

25% off:

  • Follistim AQ Cartridge (follitropin beta injection) – 300IU, 600IU, or 900IU
  • Ganirelix Acetate Injection
  • Pregnyl (chorionic gonadotropin for injection, USP)

50% off:

  • Gonal-f® RFF* Redi-jectTM (follitropin alfa injection) 300 IU
  • Gonal-f® RFF* Redi-jectTM (follitropin alfa injection) 450 IU
  • Gonal-f® RFF* Redi-jectTM (follitropin alfa injection) 900 IU
  • Gonal-f® Multi-Dose (follitropin alfa for injection) 450 IU
  • Gonal-f® Multi-Dose (follitropin alfa for injection) 1050 IU
  • Gonal-f® RFF* (follitropin alfa for injection) 75 IU
  • Cetrotide® (cetrorelix acetate for injection) 0.25 mg
  • Ovidrel® PreFilled Syringe (choriogonadotropin alfa injection) 250 mcg

Which means that fall IVF is even more likely to happen. Depending how I respond, we might only need somewhere in the $4000 range to do IVF in September/October. Now I just need to schedule my HSG & Saline sonohysterogram. As long as that all looks clear, I should be good to go. Then it’s just savings the rest of the funds up and ordering meds.

Cleveland Clinic Marketing Fail

I completely forgot to blog about this when it originally happened, but between a tweet I saw on Twitter today and poking around my desk drawer, I found this again:


I opened my mailbox to that a couple of months back. I’ve only been to this hospital system for reproductive endocrinology. This is the same hospital system that told me we would do 3 unmonitored IUI’s then move on to IVF without a single poke, prod, or stick. The very least these people could do is look at who they are sending this to. I understand I fall into the baby machine market group, but I am an infertility patient and you could try to have at least a smidge of respect for me and my health needs.

But why would they, when all they see in infertility patients is a cash machine. Thanks for not only taking advantage of my biological desire to have children, but contributing to my mental anguish. Keep it classy Cleveland Clinic.

The Gaping Wound in my Mind


I am starting to feel like IVF is futile.

While I am thankful everyday it exists, I curse the fact that it only exists for those that can afford it.

Digging my way out of poverty just simply isn’t enough.

I wish I could just turn off my desire to have children.

I wish my husband could be enough to fill my heart.

The trauma all of this has caused has turned me into a person I don’t even recognize.

I wish I could just go back, but I know I cannot.

Sick of the desperation.

Tired of the depression.

I need help, and it truly is help that money can buy.


This Is Why I Am A Loud Mouth About IF


I have stopped giving fucks about making someone uncomfortable when it comes to my infertility or infertility in general, and a recent exchange on Twitter only highlights why I have no fucks left to give.

This is the exchange I had early yesterday afternoon:

A friend responded:

Then, that evening I get this:

Mind you, this company is basically another fertilityfriend. They help women track their cycles using a charting app and a basal body thermometer and taking their temperature every morning before they even get out of bed (either orally or vaginally, depending on the thermometer) to help you either avoid conceiving or help you conceive. While I understand the vast majority of women have NO CLUE how our bodies work to conceive, my tweet about IVF says I am beyond that (Given most RE’s won’t see you until you have been TTC for a year or more. And if they don’t know that, just shows ignorance about conception related diseases). All the BBT, apps, ovulation strips, old wives tales in the world aren’t getting me pregnant. While they don’t know the specifics, the fact that I was tweeting about IVF does say I am several steps beyond their app.

I called them out on it, and their apology? They are sorry, that it was unclear that I was in such an advanced state. Yes. Because it isn’t like they recommended BBT to a woman tweeting about researching the cost of a low hormone IVF option.

And this is why I won’t ever shut up. Because there is ignorance everywhere about infertility and procreation. So, sorry not sorry if it makes you uncomfortable.