My weight has always been an issue. Since I hit puberty I have always fit under the category of obese. Activity level made a slight difference, but I’ve never been a size 2. I was so distraught in high school over my weight my Dad sent me to a nutritionist. This is the woman, who told me in the kindest manner possible, that I was just never going to be a size 2. I could be thinner, but never would I be rail thin, as I just wasn’t built that way. Satisfied by the nutritionist I let it go.
All in all (high school not included), my weight has never been a huge issue to me. I like myself, I feel pretty, so I’ve never let it be an issue. For me beauty isn’t about what size I wear, it’s about how confident I feel about myself. I’ve packed on alot of weight since my ectopic and starting fertility treatments. The majority of it is from comfort eating. I like to eat my grief, because it feels better then crying.
In an attempt to change things before my next transfer, I decided I would try something new. Counting calories and going to the gym has just never worked for me. I would follow it for a couple of months and see 0 movement on the scale. So after some research, and speaking to my RE, I decided to try a ketogenic diet. What this means is that I eat a high fat, medium protein, low carb diet. I try to keep my daily carb intake under 50 net carbs.
So far the hardest thing for me to give up has been sweets. I thought for sure it would be pasta or bread, but nope, it’s been the occasional sweet. In particular, ice cream. I do have my bad days, and I just let them happen. I let it go and move on to the next day and just don’t punish myself for it.
The other aspect to this of course is that it’s a mental struggle. Part of the choice for me is that so much of what I want my body to do is out of my control. But, I can control what I eat and how much I weigh. So in a way, this weight loss goal has also given me a way to have some control over my body again. Especially at a time when I feel like my body is failing me.
So far I have lost 31.6 lbs. For the first time in my life I feel like I have found something that works for my body. My goal right now is 200 lbs, and I’ll go from there. This is definitely a lifestyle change for me. I get to eat things I like the majority of the time. I do indulge my desire for pasta or a potato every now and then and I just account for it the rest of the day/week. I’m just working on getting accustomed to the change in what I eat.
Anyone else out there follow a diet like this? What diet related lifestyle changes have worked for you?